“Those who try to keep their lives will lose them. But those who give up their lives will save them” Luke
That verse was my verse of the day yesterday in my little book I keep at work. It continued with a short piece that; well in short said exactly what I needed to hear. I have been struggling lately with something that could change my family’s life in a BIG way. I have felt a calling to work in camp ministry…actually I think I have been called for years now, but only now am I truly paying attention to what God wants for my life. One part of this exert said “Follow God’s Impulses” It said “change careers, move across the country…Sure, it might not be safe, but what is?” I am so nervous about doing this. About picking up our family, moving to another state with no family there, no friends…nothing. What happens if I hate it, if the job stinks… (Which I highly doubt it would) I am so scared, yet God just keeps on giving me peace about it. I don’t know when it will happen – it could be next week, it could be next year; but God has made it so apparent to me that this is what He wants. I asked Him for a sign and He gave me FIVE. I am so apprehensive to accept it, but in the same time – I am afraid NOT to accept it.
The thought of not living within a 5 mile radius of my entire family puts me in panic mode. The fact that when I find out some shocking news (happy, sad, mean, nice…) I won’t be able to call my best friend and have her by my side in 10 minutes. I can’t imagine not spending the weekend curled up on my parents couch, just being with them. BUT – I can’t imagine my life if I do not follow Gods will for it. That would be a total disaster.
I have finally accepted it, and have given up. I have let go of trying to control my own life and put it in Gods hands. Currently I am looking into a camp called
Thanks for listening! (or reading)