Friday, February 15, 2008

Need a Sign? ......... OK!

“Those who try to keep their lives will lose them. But those who give up their lives will save them” Luke 17:33

That verse was my verse of the day yesterday in my little book I keep at work. It continued with a short piece that; well in short said exactly what I needed to hear. I have been struggling lately with something that could change my family’s life in a BIG way. I have felt a calling to work in camp ministry…actually I think I have been called for years now, but only now am I truly paying attention to what God wants for my life. One part of this exert said “Follow God’s Impulses” It said “change careers, move across the country…Sure, it might not be safe, but what is?” I am so nervous about doing this. About picking up our family, moving to another state with no family there, no friends…nothing. What happens if I hate it, if the job stinks… (Which I highly doubt it would) I am so scared, yet God just keeps on giving me peace about it. I don’t know when it will happen – it could be next week, it could be next year; but God has made it so apparent to me that this is what He wants. I asked Him for a sign and He gave me FIVE. I am so apprehensive to accept it, but in the same time – I am afraid NOT to accept it.

The thought of not living within a 5 mile radius of my entire family puts me in panic mode. The fact that when I find out some shocking news (happy, sad, mean, nice…) I won’t be able to call my best friend and have her by my side in 10 minutes. I can’t imagine not spending the weekend curled up on my parents couch, just being with them. BUT – I can’t imagine my life if I do not follow Gods will for it. That would be a total disaster.

I have finally accepted it, and have given up. I have let go of trying to control my own life and put it in Gods hands. Currently I am looking into a camp called Camp Redcloud. It is in Lake City, Colorado and looks just amazing. I have corresponded through email with them several times and will speak with them next week. We will see what happens there. I will of course keep you updated.

Thanks for listening! (or reading)


Anonymous said...

I think I am starting a new camp here in the DFW area if you are interested...I am hiring...? Yes??? I did not throw the ref. letter in the gutter...yet...I will try to deliver it tonight. :)Love you bestest friend :)

Kami said...

Wow, Katy, I just saw on your Road to Phoenix that it is now Road to San Antonio and that you guys are doing another marathon!! That is fantastic! AND....I clicked on the link from there to this blog....oh my goodness, I had no idea that you were talking out of state!! BooHoo...BUT, with that being said, I would only be sad that I wouldn't be taking care of Denver anymore and that I wouldn't get to see you guys as often....HOWEVER, I am THRILLED for you guys if this is what God wants you to do with your life!! It's such a GREAT feeling to follow God to the places that HE leads us to and to let HIM direct our lives!! Love and Prayers, Kami

Misty said...

that's awesome Katy. i know if you are doing what God's will is for your family and life there is nothing better on earth! i know i have slacked and not done the referral letter thing yet, i will try and get my rear in gear and do that for you! i love you and i'll keep praying for ya'll!

Anonymous said... I say we plan a little overnight stay somewhere soon....!!!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!